These things can haunt your life, and often do mine. Recently, I've been under it a lot. Writing often helps, even if it's just a tidbit, but you can always tell when I'm in it or not, when it comes to hammering away on the keys. Aside from my sporadic posting, and the one a day entry that I then have to catch up on in a hurry, I try not to show too many signs. But I never directly talk about what is bothering me, even when blowing minor grievances out or proportion.
I don't handle stress very well. I know, some people think I do, but I'm very big on trying to be prepared for the future as much as possible. I've come to the realization that no amount of prepping will allow me to tackle doomsday, so I've given up on that. But the stress of uncertainty is the one that gets me the most. You cannot control the actions of those around you, can't read their thoughts, and if you're a guy, you're often oblivious to how someone else is feeeling. I've tried to accept that as well. Financially, you can only prepare so much. Either my dollar is not going as far, or I'm living further outside my means than I thought, and that's really sad.
When the stress gets turned up a notch, I can handle it, but when there doesn't seem to be an end in sight, or the level doesn't return to normal relatively quick, it gets the best of me. I forget to take my meds, most of which are used to combat ADHD, which increases my level of anxiety. I get lost, confused, forget what time or even day it is, and before I know it, weeks or even months have flown by. Everything together leads to depression, and that reduces your energy levels and sometimes even physically hurts, just to move and get up and do something.
I know that after awhile, most of this will go away. I'll prepare better for the future, and further down the road I will experience this same exact thing, while wondering how it happened again. I persevere, never truly give up, and hope that people reading this who have no clue what I am experiencing have gained a little insight, and people that have it way worse know that I at least understand the basics of what they go through way more than I.